It's about to get quiet around here, and I'm about to see
what happens when my best laid plans get hijacked by God.
Things have been noisy around here. Noisy in my house, noisy
in my heart, noisy in my cluttered brain.
And I had a big month in store for this little corner of the
Internet. I told you, just yesterday, all about some of those plans, but I
heard something a few days ago that rocked me and, well, the plans are changing.
I heard this, this week, at work:
"Think about how many people
are talking in our world… blogs, Facebook, Twitter. Now think about how many
are listening."
Plenty of people are listening, I thought. I'm
listening.
But over the days that followed, I started seeing what I was
really listening to. I started realizing that in this season of disconnect, I
was turning to blogs, to friends, to social media for connection. I was
spending more mental energy on this virtual reality than on spiritual reality, and
puffing my chest with the accolades of readers that barely know me. I was
cranky at not having enough time to connect with my virtual support system but
barely concerned with the hours I wasn't spending with my children in my arms,
with my husband at my side, with my Bible open, with my pen in hand.
So when I went low in prayer on the topic of Lent, it should
be no surprise that this was what was to be offered, the sacrifice that must be
laid down.
"Stop talking to the world, and start listening to
Me."
I've never observed Lent before, not really. And I didn't
particularly plan on doing it this year either, but when I examined what my
heart really needed in preparation for Easter, the whisper became a roar and I knew
that my Ebenezer must become my Isaac in this Lenten season.
It's about listening. It's about getting quiet so I can be still and know that he is God.
It's about seeking words for connection. Not the words of blogs or Facebook comments
or Twitter, but the words I can only hear when my world gets quiet, when my ear
is turned against the noise.
I'm laying down social media in observance of Lent. I'm attempting
to turn, instead, to connection with the Creator in pursuit of a heart that
more fully understands the Sacrifice we're meditating on during this season. This
goes so strongly against my nature as the do-it-all queen, but I think that's
entirely the point. There is nothing that needs to be done more than being
present, more than fully listening, more than making room in crowded spaces.
The giving up? Fasting? This is never about what we can earn
with our best efforts. It's about letting the Lord discipline our minds, hearts, and bodies to
change course when we've gone off track, to allow for the craving of our flesh
that can be fully satisfied by the cleansing of our heart.
I won't be around here much for the next 40-ish days. Won't
be on Facebook or Twitter either. I do have a few book and product review commitments
I've made that I'll honor (so I'll pop up every now and again), and I'll still
be available by email or direct messaging by name, but for the most part, I'm
just trying to quiet the constant stream making its way into my life, to tunnel
my vision to the road toward Calvary.
See you around Easter, friends.
"Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a
steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy
Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing
spirit, to sustain me." – Psalm 51:10-12
Love you, friend. May all the things that bubble up in the quiet draw you close to His heart.
ReplyDeleteI know at least 3 other bloggers that are stopping blogging for lent too :( We will miss you. I'm thinking about getting up early (did you catch that --thinking about) We'll see if it happens. Happy Lent!
ReplyDeleteI think it is a beautiful committment...to listen...I need to do more of that myself.
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