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Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Home is Where the Crumbs Are


Home has been a bit of a fluid concept for me the last few years… four moves in three years, hauling belongings across the country… and back again.

But now, we're home.

And I know that home is late-night laughter and lame TV.  Christmas lights on the deck rails and buckets of toy cars.  Making lasagna and salad and bread pudding and eating it with the people I love.

We have a house.  A beautiful house with views for miles.  A house I wouldn't have dreamed to ask for, and I'm incredibly grateful.  It's not the house that matters, of course, but permission to live inside.  Folding towels and putting away dishes feels like an incredible gift, lately.  My own coffee mugs in the cupboard, a bed big enough for us both, replacing the batteries in the smoke detectors and kissing my children goodnight in beds of their own.  It is a gift to choose your own shower curtain and eat off plates of your choosing...to wash laundry when it suits you and dry it in a dryer that doesn't shut itself off and to know in which drawer the can opener goes.  Perhaps I hadn't realized.  

And I am enjoying every minute of this extravagant gift -- toilets to clean and floors with crumbs and work to do to pay for bathroom trashcans and a few more bookshelves to make this place just. right.

Here, my heart has begun to find rest. 

Rest to unwrap the impact of the last few years.  Rest to learn again to love and trust the One who holds it all in His hands.  Rest to make a home for my family and the freedom to really live in it.  Rest to discover creativity again, to find beauty in joy and happiness, now, instead of merely striving for purpose in pain and worry.

And since coming home, I am remembering what it is to be a mother… a wife… a woman… a sister… a daughter.  I hadn't realized I'd forgotten, but I had.  And here, I am me again.

Welcome back, me.  Welcome crumbs and dirty towels.  Welcome grocery shopping and paying bills.  Welcome half-glasses of sweet red after dinner and frozen pizza now and then.  Welcome floors to sweep and windows to wash.  

Welcome, home.  


  1. Oh, Cara,  so very happy for you and your family!  Yes, home!  Always, we are welcomed home.  I pray you continue to feel wrapped up tight in His arms, safe and joy-filled and discovering, again and again, more of who you are created to be.  Love this journey with you here, friend.  

  2. Welcome back to the blogosphere.  You have been missed :)

  3. Oh yes! Your word resonate with me and breathe peace into my own thoughts, worries, stresses, views of "the house." How thrilled I am for you and it makes me wish EVEN more that we lived "around the corner" from each other where we can just visit and sit and drink in the midst of laundry and dishes and crumbs...and feel at home...together!

    Love and Happy New Year to you, my darling friend!

  4. Lovely, lovely! This made me smile for you:)

  5. Former President Ronald Reagan once said, "Enjoy life. It's ungrateful not to." So glad to hear you are enjoying your new home.


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