I Want to Tell You...

I have so much to tell you.

I want to tell you about the book projects I'm working on, how I am seeing God these days in beautiful, Technicolor fingerprints and quiet windy whispers and grass blades on bare feet.

I want to tell you about the books I'm reading and how they're changing and shaping me, reminding me who I am and the beauty all around. 

I want to tell you about the adoption and how we're closer than ever before but also so very far away, how I am terrified and beautified by the process, and how waiting for more children in this house is like no other kind of anticipation in the world, not even childbirth.

I want to show you my home, like I've promised a dozen times. I want to invite you in, I want a housewarming right here in the living room with each and every one of you, even though I've been here 6 months already (how could it be?).

I want to tell you about the new church we're attending, how amazing and beautifully different it is and all the ways I've split open there in its grassy amphitheater.  

I want to tell you the hilarious things little C is saying these days, how totally amazing this time is with him and the tiny way I'm grieving that my days at home alone with him are coming to an end, at the same time watching big C go all man-like before my eyes and my beautiful girl with the manicure and her own guitar is impossibly not a baby anymore.

I want to apologize for not reading blogs lately. There's just so much and always never enough at once.

I want to tell you why I decided to remove most of the advertising from this blog and why I left some here.

Mostly, I want to tell you how much I love you and wish I was spending more time around here but walk through every day in the support of all of you, my absolutely amazing friends, my support system, the borders of my heart. I want to tell you how amazing you are, each and every one of you. 

His love, to you, to-day. <3