Alright, so I'm pretty sure no one has noticed my absence (wow, that sounded very Eeyore-esque, didn't it?), but I thought I'd pop in here and wax and wane a bit about life and how its still wonky and uncertain and I have nothing creative to share. Something about the up-in-the-airness of our life at the moment makes my creative brain sort of paralyzed while massive amounts of fatigue set in. We are getting closer to having a direction -- I think. We traveled across the country for a bit of what-iffing, which was helpful, and now, we keep waiting for the green light, or a red one, for that matter, to get us up and at 'em for whatever lies ahead.
I haven't been doing much creating lately. I'm working on an old dining set I picked up for pennies -- you know the standard country set with the spindle-back chairs and such? Anyway, I started to apply a distressed ivory finish to it, but the brush-paint is looking dull and chalky and I'm really wishing that I'd have opted for spray paint instead. I'm only two chairs into it, so I may re-route the whole thing and try spraying it. We'll see. I'm so tired lately that I can't manage to scrape up the gumption to play with paint and sandpaper -- a sign, perhaps, that something is terribly wrong for me, haha.
No, not really. I think I'm just sort of unconsciously sopping up the last bit of laziness that I can eek out of this season of life. I don't do lazy, but that's precisely what I've been lately. I know it won't last and that soon enough, I'll have to return to schedules and alarm clocks and exhausted evenings, but for now, I'm taking the hours as they come and trying to learn something in the silence. I'm taking naps (gasp!) and sleeping in and watching TV and doing all those things my life has been substantively void of and will be again soon, but it's worth it to take a pause, even if the magnification of the intensity of waiting is so difficult when one slows down to watch the clock.
Ok, folks. This girl is gonna take her lazy-bones self off to bed now, and hope that next time, I'll be armed with something beautiful and inspiring for your viewing pleasure. Thanks for sticking with me!